Recently lost my friend and sister-in-law, Rosa, from brain cancer right after a car accident (not my fault at all) and the loss of my car. Still not sure whether my car will be fixed or totaled in the end and my car is symbolic for me of a very sad and chaotic time in my life (purchased with cash from a lawsuit involving the death of my mother-in-law from a car accident) so many of those memories also recently resurrected.
For me today I don't deal with my feelings alone or without thorough expression which makes me very grateful for all the friends and family in my life who know this is just who I am and how I need to express myself. I used to be one of those women that wouldn't show emotion or cry but through my life experiences have learned that I am not my complete self if I can't show and tell those I'm close to my true feelings and failings in life.
The good news is that though I am still grieving, I am still preparing for the worst tho hoping for the best with my car, my need for expression through my artwork has returned and the other night I finished a floral that I'd started just as this accident happened (honestly it is not my favorite as it seems dark and forboding (sp?) to me which is why I choose to not display it here on my blog). Another I won't display is an acrylic I painted of a woman, very abstract and not very flattering which on later looking at it I discovered seems to resemble the woman who broadsided me.
What I WILL display here because it is just the beginning and not yet finished is what I'm calling "Magnolia Blossom New Mexico Style" which is acrylic painting and gel pen & ink on watercolor paper. This is the second of paintings I've started but not finished. I hope to soon be back to my daily painting tho I begin physical therapy soon which may curtail some of that only temporarily. The healing has begun ....
It seems my creative juices are flowing once again. I was up late into the night, early next morning painting this gourd. It was one among many we bought in Casa Grande, Arizona at a gourd farm while visiting cousins nearby. Happy to have a return of motivation and inspiration to create and soon back to daily painting!
